Tuesday, January 03, 2006

abrupt notions...

this goes out to all those people who just let it be...
to people who silently suffered...
to people who never gave up...
to people who stood fast in the face of challenges...
who never lost hope...
this is for the fireman who saved a life...
this is for a policeman who saved an old woman from being mugged...
this is to a child who stood up for his mother...
this is for a widow who raised her children as good human beings...
this is to death for always hallowing us and urging us to make our life worth it...
this is to those who reached out...
who were steadfast...
death is a harrowing experience which can tame the unruly and the obstinate...
which can mellow down a tycoon...
which can sadden a tyrant...
which can humble an oppressor...
it is D E A T H...
the stench...
in all its awraic glory...
the fervor...
the longetivity...
the pain...
the spirit which moans...
which roars...
the pandemonium...
amidst all the pulchritudinous valleys...
and the Brobdingnagian exterior that we portray...
there were times...
when there was no light...
there was no existence...
there was an essence...
just a feeling...
tonight as i sit...
i feel the night gaping at my insides...
trying hard to penetrate...
i know why a wolf howls...
i know why a bird chirps...
i know why the lion roared...
why the hyaenas feast...
why the vultures wolf...
why the ants prey...
the circle seems perfect...
blurry at the hinges...
but it moves in on me...
closer...
closer still...
i can feel it...
gnawing...
pawing...
i want to smile...
i want to fake it...
i want to act...
i want to falsify...
i want to be a stick...
carved into furniture...
i want to be a rose that hath not known its destiny...
i want to be a catterpillar and wield my time to others...
if i put a smile back on your face...
i know id have lived...
id know...
deep deep down...
that it wasnt worthless after all...

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