Monday, March 19, 2007

goodbye my friend...

this is to a soul...
a kindred spirit...
a man...
a good man...
this is to our team coach, Mr Bob Woolmer who passed away yesterday...
he has left a nation tormented and grappling for targets to point fingers at...
and in a way this is our darkest moment indeed...
this is God making us search from within...
where we have gone wrong...
where meritocracy lies dead...
where there is no accountability...
no dignity...
no realm...
no one at the helm ANSWERABLE...
a mockery of the system indeed...
but then since when have institutions counted for anything...
it's the people which etch an institution and the vice versa does not hold...
this is to tough times...
sometimes you have to put your head down and humbly admit...
to all the wrong doings...
what you could have done differently...
and as a nation all we expect...
is a decent show...
and like last time...
this time implies forgiveness...
there will be tomorrow...
new heroes...
new figure heads...
a different scenario...
a different ball game...
life goes on...
and sometimes just when we imagine that this is the end of the world...
something so truly beautiful and aspiring occurs...
that we are forced to smile...
a passionate smile...
lurking at the nook of our lips...
outlining our innocence...
and so...
today is the beginning of a new dawn...
so let's live and let live...
i move...
to greener pastures...

Friday, March 09, 2007

Smile...

and so the going went...
'when the going gets tough...the tough get going...'
all those years...
i kept wondering when it would be my turn...
my turn to take on the world...
to challenge their outlandish outlooks...
to address the ongoing skirmishes...
when it would be my time...
the winters bristled...
the leaves demonic...
the eerie silence...
the moaning winds...
there i stood...
somewhere away from the warmth of the fireplace...
looking...
with renewed hope and vigor...
with all the pain taking its toll...
i stood...
unfettered...
like a pillar...
and then...
time weaved its seductive web...
of continuity and stealthy...
slowly and yet surely...
there i stood...
looking at a world which i knew not...
taking in the emotions...
or their remnants...
glancing at a mankind...
with no soul...
with utter disregard for love...
where universal doctrines were somewhat monetary...
where every transaction was a move in the stock markets...
where life itself was webbed and mechanized...
where there were robots in the shape of humans...
lifesize and THERE...
i stood...
and then...
all the disappointments...
all the missed opportunities...
all those times which felt like the end...
it happened...
and in a short space a lot of it too...
while we are mere occupants on a chessboard and every move that we make has recurring consequences...
to every action there is an equal and opposite reaction...
the only newton's law that ever made sense...
and there it was...
the time when your trial was over...
no more mettle testing...
no more insinuations...
no more dull drudgery...
there was life...
undulating...
but in a way that seemed possessed...
a way which enticed you to give it a shot...
to let go of the grudges...
to start afresh...
like a new dawn...
a reinvigorating spring...
like a bud about to blossom...
there it was...
all the dreams...
carved...
chiselled...
and there to be trampled upon...
by the reality...
the way we foresaw...
standing...
embracing...
yet again...
and in that instance...
God smiled...
upon his creation...
enabling him to know BRUTE FORCE...
pleasure in pain...
and now the pain in pleasure...
both sides...
it was time to walk the final walk...
the walk to the gallows...
where the final decision loomed...
how long before we sucuumb...
before we take the bait...
i grimaced...
knowing...
there will never be a second time...
there will be no looking back...
there will be no hiccups...
transition complete...
LIFE RESTORED...
and i wake up...
to the sound of jaybirds...
of a new dawn...
of untold opportunities...
of life...
i walk away...SMILING

Sunday, March 04, 2007

lost in the moment...

they said it...
they portrayed it...
the winds whispered...
the peripheries carried it...
the mountains knoweth...
the dewdrops sinned...
never knowing...
the mystery...
there it was...
without a constraint...
without any barriers...
painstakingly prepped up...
for the forces...
that he knew not...
there he stood...
worshipping...
the only way he knew...
knowing...
that life would never be the same...
a point of no return...
the island of trinity...
of saintly paradigms...
there he stood and pondered...
the threshold struck...
with all its hefty torque...
torpedoing his thoughts...
allaying his greatest fears...
in that moment...
the flashbang...
the blackholes...
the serenity...
the sinisterhood...
everything made sense...
there it was...
revealed onto him...
for once and forever...
this is to someone really special...
my other half...
my better half...
my soul...
my existence...
this is to you Madiha...
for i have known love...
and i have conquered it...
to you...
i live...
with a mission...
a reason...
peace hath prevailed...