Friday, March 09, 2007

Smile...

and so the going went...
'when the going gets tough...the tough get going...'
all those years...
i kept wondering when it would be my turn...
my turn to take on the world...
to challenge their outlandish outlooks...
to address the ongoing skirmishes...
when it would be my time...
the winters bristled...
the leaves demonic...
the eerie silence...
the moaning winds...
there i stood...
somewhere away from the warmth of the fireplace...
looking...
with renewed hope and vigor...
with all the pain taking its toll...
i stood...
unfettered...
like a pillar...
and then...
time weaved its seductive web...
of continuity and stealthy...
slowly and yet surely...
there i stood...
looking at a world which i knew not...
taking in the emotions...
or their remnants...
glancing at a mankind...
with no soul...
with utter disregard for love...
where universal doctrines were somewhat monetary...
where every transaction was a move in the stock markets...
where life itself was webbed and mechanized...
where there were robots in the shape of humans...
lifesize and THERE...
i stood...
and then...
all the disappointments...
all the missed opportunities...
all those times which felt like the end...
it happened...
and in a short space a lot of it too...
while we are mere occupants on a chessboard and every move that we make has recurring consequences...
to every action there is an equal and opposite reaction...
the only newton's law that ever made sense...
and there it was...
the time when your trial was over...
no more mettle testing...
no more insinuations...
no more dull drudgery...
there was life...
undulating...
but in a way that seemed possessed...
a way which enticed you to give it a shot...
to let go of the grudges...
to start afresh...
like a new dawn...
a reinvigorating spring...
like a bud about to blossom...
there it was...
all the dreams...
carved...
chiselled...
and there to be trampled upon...
by the reality...
the way we foresaw...
standing...
embracing...
yet again...
and in that instance...
God smiled...
upon his creation...
enabling him to know BRUTE FORCE...
pleasure in pain...
and now the pain in pleasure...
both sides...
it was time to walk the final walk...
the walk to the gallows...
where the final decision loomed...
how long before we sucuumb...
before we take the bait...
i grimaced...
knowing...
there will never be a second time...
there will be no looking back...
there will be no hiccups...
transition complete...
LIFE RESTORED...
and i wake up...
to the sound of jaybirds...
of a new dawn...
of untold opportunities...
of life...
i walk away...SMILING

2 comments:

deranged_lunatic said...

dunno how long it's been since i last came here because i remember a few months ago i thought maybe you've stopped blogging...so glad to see a new post. and the first two lines made me smile in a way that only your posts can...can't really explain it, but i loved the beginning of this post :)

will just catch up on some more of your posts right now...and i really miss your comments on my blog 'cause you'd actually read and comment honestly, unlike most people who comment for the heck of it..haha. tu khair, just incase you ever like to drop by at my blog, it's now at macharvibes.spaces.live.com :)

Sandy said...

Beautiful...